Till I met him. . .
I just have to write all of this out. . .
I know your all so sick and tired of my stupid, emotional, real life, gay BS. . .But so am I. . . Yet, for the strangest and stupidest of reasons. . .I can't let him go. . .I can't just move on so easily like he has. . .like people always do. . . I get to attached, obviously. . .
I don't know if I should hate him, if I should forget him. . .If i should still love him. . .If I should still talk to him. . .I have no clue where to go. . .i feel so empty. . .and so fake. . .He made my life so perfect. . .So, amazing. And now all i feel i can do, is draw emo pictures, write this shit, work, drink coffee, and act fake again. . .Till I, yet again find some one as amazing, and as pure, and perfect as him. . . He was my every thing, my one and only, i wnted to mary him. . .I wanted to be with him forever. . .and. . .he said so did he. . .but i guess he re thought every thing. . .good for him. . .

He found some one so fast. . .and already loves him more than me i suppose. . . .

Tomorrow was supposed to be our 4 month. . .I think im going to cut my self 27 times. . .

Im acting scene now cause i look happy and feel colorful. . .

He was the worlds best kisser. . .

I dont thin he will ever talk to me again. . .he hasnt since he texted me good bye. . .
I feel Jelous
I feel like an obsessive boy friend
I havent been sleeping and have been crying
I did what i told him i wouldnt. . .just cause. . .

People are telling me to get over him. . .i cant. . .and i wont be able to for a long while. . .
I feel alone in the world. . .
I cant talk to any one. . .
I wish this eyeliner would bleed. . .

Hope perhaps some one loves me liek he did some day. . .

I bet a bullet could kill me .23 seconds faster than he forgot me. . .

So. . .yea. . .im going insane. . .expect scared fore arms kiddos. . .

Finalé. . .

How did he forget me so fast? When he said he never stopped thinking about me. . . Hearts stop fast, amazing. . .












maybe he will love me when im 16. . .